Leap Day

Happy Leap Day everyone! I am writing this from New Orleans on my family vacation. J called me this morning to tell me all about her doctor’s visit and ultrasound this morning. Let me just start by saying that so far, this entire process with the fertility doctor has gone so quickly and smoothly. I am so thankful for this!

Everything in the ultrasound looks great – she has 4 follicles ready to go and that is the most he’ll inseminate with so that’s just perfect. He asked her if she was sure she wanted to proceed knowing that there is a (remote) possibility all 4 will become embryos and she said yes. We have come too far to say no now! Plus no one is really thinking that it will happen; the most likely scenario is twins (which as mentioned before, we are OK with). Regardless everything is progressing quicker than expected as she took to the Clomid really well. She has 1 follicle about to go, 2 good-sized ones, and 1 small one…so at the doctor’s office today they went ahead and gave her the Ovidrel shot and she’s scheduled to come back tomorrow at 9:45 a.m. to have the insemination.

I can’t believe how quickly this is all happening. It seems like we waited so long and that we were just hurrying up to wait but now…its all just moving along without a hitch so far! I am so happy that everything worked out and she was cleared to proceed this time around, otherwise that is a lot of money that we would have put out to just have to wait and start over in a few weeks. I mean, of course, we may still have to just start over in a few weeks if she doesn’t get pregnant this time around, but at least we get to complete a cycle this time and give it a shot.

We are a flurry of emotions…nervous that it will or will not work, and balanced on the precipice of the unknown…just think, tomorrow could be the day. Or it could not be. For now, we are trying to remain positive but not oblivious, but for me it is really hard. I am just ready to get home to my own bed and so happy that I get to be there with her tomorrow for the insemination. What perfect timing 🙂

I’ll update you all tomorrow on how it goes! I’m heading home now…long trip ahead.

-B

Un-Crazy

I should really be studying for my midterm in Business Management tomorrow but instead I’m just getting home from our psychological evaluation to get cleared for baby-making next week! It was such a source of worry trying to get this appointment…at first we were going to have to do it the morning of March 2 (insemination day) and we worried that we would have to push back our baby-making attempt until later this month. Then, this afternoon, she called Jenn back and said she had a cancellation for 7:45 tonight so we took it as she wanted to see both of us together and since I’m going out of town next week tonight was as good a time as any. I was a little nervous going in to it because I’ve never been to a psychologist before so I just didn’t know what to expect. Our fears quickly dissolved though as we met with Dr. R and she was actually really cool. We had to fill out some preliminary paperwork and questionnaires, mostly about how stressed we feel about certain areas of our lives. We chit-chatted about ourselves a little, just getting to know one another, and then the questions started. Boy did the questions start…

She asked us so many things…how long have we been trying, are we really OK using donor sperm from someone we don’t know directly, how do our families feel about all of this, are we prepared for worst-case scenarios like Down Syndrome or birth defects, are we depressed/anxious/etc, have we thought about how we are going to tell our children where they came from, and other such various questions. We both really liked her and didn’t have any trouble being honest and never felt like we were being judged. It was kind of nice also to be able to just voice our feelings and plans to someone other than our families or friends, and it reassured us that we had planned and had discussed the important things before beginning this journey. IT just made me feel a lot more calm about the whole thing. Everyone using donor sperm has to undergo this evaluation before the fertility doctor will proceed…and of course we passed! She even said we would make good moms…which is always a nice thing to hear. She was really excited for us and in turn it just makes us more excited that we are one step closer in this process and journey.

So here we are, ordering our baby batter to be shipped to the fertility doctor’s office. Its exciting but still hard to believe that this is all happening so quickly after so much planning and time. Sometimes I just want to hit the pause button to catch my breath! But I wouldn’t trade this ride for anything and I’m looking forward to next week and hoping that everything is aligned and good to go. So far everything has come together with crazy good timing … and I’m waiting to see what’s next!

😀 YAY!

-B

Overwhelmed

All I can say is WOW.

We went to the fertility doctor yesterday and it was my first experience with the whole thing. We checked in a little late due to J’s dentist appointment running over and had to wait for two other women to be seen first. Once we were called, the nurse took us back to take J’s vitals, check her weight (she’s down 10 pounds after a month on the low-carb diet YAY!), and then we were ushered off to a lounge/meeting area. This office is definitely well-dressed.

So we wait about 5 minutes for the doctor to come in and he brings in her chart and her HSG results. Everything with the HSG was perfect, so that’s a relief that she doesn’t have any blockages in her tubes or anything abnormal in there. Next comes the bloodwork and we find out exactly what he suspected: she is insulin resistant and what is happening is that 2 hours or so after eating her blood sugar is dropping too low (she was a 47 after her 2 hour glucose test, but at least she never left the “normal” range even once her sugar spiked at 1 hour). He advised her if she feels a little dizzy or lightheaded a couple hours after eating to just have a small snack and some juice to get some natural sugar in there to clear out the extra insulin. Easy enough! So in reviewing the blood work we find that she doesn’t have any STD’s (no surprise there) and her estrogen is fine. The only problem is that she isn’t producing enough progesterone which means…she didn’t ovulate.

Now if you remember my previous posts or just have some common sense you can figure out that no ovulation = no chance of getting pregnant. I could tell she was devastated! The words flashed across her face without her having to actually say anything… “Its my fault we’re not pregnant…something’s wrong with me.” I squeezed her hand, silently assuring her that everything would be okay. The doctor went over everything and gave us his recommended course of action: Clomid for 5 days (to prepare her follicles for ovulation) and then a shot of Ovidrel to force ovulation. She’ll take the Clomid and then has an ultrasound back in his office to make sure follicles are ready to go and that there aren’t more than 4 or 5 (basically his words were “We don’t want any reality shows around here, so if you’re going to release a ton of eggs we don’t want to inseminate and give you septuplets!”). So she goes in again on 2/29 (when I am in New Orleans nonetheless – I am very upset about this!!) and as long as the ultrasound shows all is well in egg-land then she’ll get the Ovidrel shot that day and the insemination will probably be that Friday.

Yep, you heard right…Friday March 2 is the tentative day of baby-making. I can’t believe it! It feels like this whole process has taken forever.

Now before we can inseminate we have to:

1. Order three vials of Todd to be shipped to the doctor’s office (they will store it for free while we are trying, so we can save on shipping costs, plus they do a 75% buy back so w00t w00t!)

2. We have to meet with a psychologist to make sure we are mentally and emotionally prepared for this journey…which we got a call back from her today that we should have started this process a month ago (well thanks for telling us a month ago!) but she would try to see what she could do and is going to call the doctor for us to verify…ugh.

3. Pick up her medications AND pay for them…they are not covered by insurance and by the way, its like a $200 copay EACH TIME we go to the doctor.

Needless to say, we are a little stressed out right now. And stretched thin! Between my trip next week, our lease signing & inspection, all these doctor appointments, and work being a pain in the bum…well we are ready for a vacation. And to win the lottery.

Until the next visit…

-B

Amazing

I am sitting here in the dentist office waiting on Jenn to get her cavity checked out. We have our appointment with the fertility doctor at 10 and we are both so nervous/excited to hear about the results of all the bloodwork she had last month. I am always the optimist and think everything will be okay.

As I’m waiting in the dentist’s waiting room a mom with two little girls and a boy come in. He is getting a cleaning and she’s keeping the other two in line…well trying to. Kids are a handful, and I get that, but I am so ready to start on our journey of motherhood. Despite those moments when you want to wring their necks because they are driving you crazy, there are those moments that make it all worth it:

“Mommy read with me!”

“Mommy look what I did!”

“Mommy I love you.”

I can’t wait to have our own munchkin to hold in my arms and protect and love…hopefully sooner rather than later.

Our soonest possible insemination is only 11 days away, as long as all the tests come back with good results. I can’t believe it could be less than two weeks until we are on our own journey to motherhood. I’m amazed, and I’m feeling good about it all 🙂

I’ll post the results later…

-B