Let’s kick off this blog with some happy news: our wedding date is quickly approaching! Next week can’t come soon enough for the both of us. Next Tuesday J’s work is throwing her a bridal shower which I thought was super cute and nice of them. We decided to write our vows together and we finished them last week. And despite our first set of wedding bands looking horribly manly, yesterday we received our replacements which are much more appealing. We have been searching for dresses/skirts/outfits for a couple months now too, preferably something that didn’t make us look like an Easter egg or 100 months pregnant, and FINALLY found something we loved on Old Navy.com Monday night that fits what we want perfectly. It should arrive tomorrow afternoon. Nothing like cutting it close, huh! I emailed our wedding officiate for some last-minute details and our flight and hotel confirmations are printed and ready to go. Next hurdle: packing…enough said. 🙂
As for the baby stuff, let’s just say that I have always thought God has a sense of humor. J and I have always joked that we won’t get pregnant until we are married. So our IUI this month was supposed to be around 3-4 days before our trip to DC. We figured, “Hey! That’s close enough to count for being married first, right? I mean, you may not actually conceive until after we are married.” The funny thing is that God is apparently a little more strict than we are! J went back to the doctor yesterday for her follow-up ultrasound. All of the cysts on her left ovary were gone and new follicles were beginning to form, which is great! Unfortunately there was one cyst left on the right ovary, which can complicate things. So now we wait. Again.
And if the cyst isn’t gone by next month, then J may have to go on birth control for a month to see if the hormones will shrink/get rid of it. Oy vey. Let’s just hope it doesn’t come to that. I can’t imagine us sitting out for another month!
We are discouraged, sure. Upset, definitely. Sad, absolutely. But we know that it is all in the timing and that there must be a bigger plan out there for why we are spending another month on a trying-to-conceive hiatus. In the big scheme of things, its okay that we have to wait. After all, we will be travelling to DC and the added stress of are-we-aren’t-we on top of that could have been too much for us to take. LOL
So we are just going to have our trip, enjoy ourselves, and we’ll do all we can to keep healthy and get this cyst to go away. We’ve started back on the lower carb diet after falling off the wagon for a couple weeks. Its going to be hell for a few days, but its worth it not to feel like crap and make sure J’s hormones are all straightened out and in prime baby-making mode. Its especially hard to think that maybe the cyst would have been gone if we’d stayed true to our diet…but its in the past and we can’t beat ourselves up over it now.
All we can do is look ahead to all of the good things coming our way…our wedding next week is the big highlight we can’t wait for! 🙂 We are so ready for a vacation. Also, school is wrapping up (FINALLY!) and will be done in the next couple weeks. We’re starting our cake decorating classes next month, too. And keeping optimism high, there could soon be a little soul on its way to us. Maybe we had to be 100% married before it could happen. Who knows! It is so difficult to be patient, but what else can we do? All I know is that we’re just going to continue on our path and do the best we can do to make sure we are open and ready for our little one to come into our lives.
Wish us a good, safe trip, and happy wedding/honeymoon. I’m sure we’ll have an update and/or some pictures for you after the trip. 🙂