20 Months

Jaxson turned 20 months today! We are closing in on the ominous “Terrible Two’s” (and getting a little preview) and Jax is growing by leaps and bounds and learning so much. Children really are little sponges at this stage, picking up on not only actions but words and it is really just amazing to see the world through his little eyes every day.

And now for the updates!

New Skills
• walks on all fours – yep, like an animal
• hums and sings to himself while playing
• gasps in surprise or amazement – at any and everything it seems, although to him I’m sure the things we take for granted really are extraordinary
• goes down the slide on his own – and is even adventurous enough to stand up at the top now (oy vey!)
• puts on his sandals & tries to put on his shoes (which are size 7/7.5 now!)
• jumping on the bed, couch, etc.
• “blowing bubbles” (when we give him the wand w/o any soap on
• definitely musically inclined and can keep a beat on his little drum

New Vocabulary
• variations of “Guinea Pig” including “geeny” and “pig”
• Doozer (Dooz) & Murphy (Mur), which are the names of our Guinea pigs
• Bet (Aunt Betti), Jo (cousin Jolie), Mahh (cousin Marque), and Mii (Uncle Mike), Chess-y (Aunt Chelsea)
• yellow…which is now the ONLY color he’ll say most of the time
• cute
• dude
• man
• plane
• play
• bluh (bless you, when you sneeze)
• pleeeee (please)
• thank you
• “Oh, man!”
• move
• boo-boo (whenever he gets hurt, and then he runs over to us for a kiss)
• hiyah (like karate)
• “Ew!” (which he tends to use for anything on the floor such as dirt, paper, worms (outside on the porch after it rains), Guinea pig bedding, etc. and he picks it up and hands it to us to throw away)
• “Woohoo!”
• Beginning (understandable) sentences! As in “Go Car” when he wants to go somewhere, or “Move Mommy” when I don’t get out of the way fast enough for him

New Likes
• Pizza crust! Which was the first time he willingly ate any sort of bread product other than Publix cookies
• The beach! We went a few weekends ago with Uncle Mike and Aunt Betti and Jax absolutely loved playing in the water. He was afraid of the waves at first, but started calling them “bubble water” and I would pick him up over them as they rushed in which he thought was great fun. We didn’t have his swimsuit or I would have tried taking him in a little bit, so maybe next time.
• Plane rides! Jax had his first flight when we went to visit J’s grandparents for their anniversary and for me and Jax to meet most of her step-dad’s side of the family in NY. Although we missed our flight there we ended up getting on a nonstop flight that night and Jax was perfect! He didn’t have any issues with his ears popping or getting motion sick and belly-laughed so hard when we landed. On the way home, he slept on me almost the whole ride and didn’t wake up until after we got back into the airport.
• Guinea Pigs! We cleaned out and re-did Terrapin’s old tank as a Guinea Pig enclosure and Jax loves watching them run around and play. He even holds them so nicely in his lap and gives them gentle pets, although he keeps trying to poke them in the eye too so we have to keep an close eye on him.

New Dislikes
• Listening…hence my prior statement of the preview of the “Terrible Two’s”. Most of the time he is so good at listening and following the rules, but lately he has been pushing every single button J and I have, which results in timeouts, spankings, and his subsequent tears and screeching screams. Incidentally, such screams are Mamas’ new dislike this month.

Other Things
• Jax’s eyes are no longer that crisp blue-grey, and have instead started to match J’s green eyes. They still change depending on what he’s wearing, but they definitely no longer just grey or blue anymore. I love it – I wanted him to have her eye color!
• Jaxson is 100% an animal-lover. He is so gentle and kind with animals of any type and size, always fascinated with them. He is so good with Bubba, our 15 year old cat, going over and sitting next to him, giving him hugs and kisses and gentle pets. He loves to hold Murphy & Doozer, our Guinea Pigs, although I think he prefers Murphy for some reason.
• He surprised J the other day with his knowledge of animal noises, even ones we didn’t know he knew. We’d worked on elephant a while ago, but he’s recently popped out with “Hoo! Hoo!” for owls and “naaaaaaay” for a horse, which is just hilarious and the cutest thing I’ve ever heard.
• He has favorite songs, so when they come on in the car he starts singing super loudly and dancing in his car seat. We pulled out his tiny drum so he can use it all the time and he bangs on it with the drumsticks and sings or hums. Our boy is definitely a little musician in the making!
• He loves to be outside, and luckily we were able to get our porch cleaned off for him so that he can go out there again now. He will just sit there and watch the squirrels and birds in the yard and the leaves blowing in the wind. We still need to fix up and assemble his playset, which we think he’s just about big enough to go on soon!

Jaxson had a great month, full of fun new experiences! He really enjoyed the beach and I think we’ll have to suck it up and visit more often so he can have fun there. He loved the plane rides and charmed J’s family when we went to NY and absolutely loved Great-Papa, although he did not sleep a wink in the hotel (nor did we). He loves music, animals, and being outdoors and he’s learning and growing so much lately that we just can’t keep up. He is absolutely amazing, wonderful, and loving, despite the tantrums and attitude he sports from time to time. Really, though, we are just two lucky moms who love our little boy so much and enjoy watching him grow up every day.

And Finally, Pictures!

 

Hi from us!

Hi from us!

Family Duck-Faces!

Family Duck-Faces!

Just Bein' Cute

Just Bein’ Cute

Big Grin!

Big Grin!

Lounging

Lounging

How cute are these two? So alike!

How cute are these two? So alike!

Mama J and Jaxson

Mama J and Jaxson

Rawr!

Rawr!

Mama B and Jaxson

Mama B and Jaxson

Jax & Mama B after a morning jog

Jax & Mama B after a morning jog

Strike a Pose!

Strike a Pose!

Our little model

Our little model

Demanding Bubbles

Demanding Bubbles

Cutie Pie!

Cutie Pie!

Sitting in the front seat while parked

Sitting in the front seat while parked

Cheese!

Cheese!

Uh-oh someone's up to something!

Uh-oh someone’s up to something!

ZZZzzzz...

ZZZzzzz…

A Boy & His Cat

A Boy & His Cat

Happy Boy as long as he has MoMo!

Happy Boy as long as he has MoMo!

Pretend Bubbles

Pretend Bubbles

Ready for Take-Off to NY!

Ready for Take-Off to NY!

Waiting to fly home to FL...can you tell he hadn't slept well all weekend?

Waiting to fly home to FL…can you tell he hadn’t slept well all weekend?

After his 2 hour nap on the flight home to FL

After his 2 hour nap on the flight home!

Our little musician

Our little musician

Gentle with Murphy

Gentle with Murphy

Hanging with Doozer

Hanging with Doozer

First time at the beach

First time at the beach

Ready for bedtime stories, Moms!

Ready for bedtime stories, Moms!

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Insomnia

I was up this morning at 5:30, went pee, and laid back down and snuggled in close to my wife. I closed my eyes, settled down, and tried to go back to sleep. At 6:15 I gave up and went to the living room to play Candy Crush, hoping it would make me tired enough to go back to bed. I trolled Facebook, checked emails, caught up on my blog roll, and it’s now 7:00 and the sun is just starting to lighten the sky outside. The cat is yelling because he can’t figure out why I’m awake and my wife isn’t, and the guinea pigs are munching on hay across the room. I’m out of lives on Candy Crush, tired but not sleepy, and my head is spinning with all these thoughts and I can’t get my brain to Just. Shut. Up. What am I thinking about?

Why, getting pregnant of course! Isn’t that what keeps all of us here up all night? Ever since I got the go-ahead from the doctor, my wife and I have been discussing it almost nonstop. I am ready to try ASAP, she wants to wait at least a couple months, which I agree with too, honestly, especially with the busy holiday season coming up. But it’s almost as if my body is so ready it’s yelling at me to get this show on the road while my brain and heart are saying to wait. I know our next child is out there, waiting for us, but it doesn’t feel like it’s quite the right time just yet. Soon but not yet. And so in the meantime I’ve been keeping myself busy researching, planning, dreaming (just not while sleeping obviously) and the wheels in my head have been spinning, keeping me awake.

Sigh…I think I’ll go try to lay back down now. At the least, I can spend the rest of the morning snuggling my wife before Jax wakes up. 🙂

Bloodwork Results Are In

I had bloodwork drawn at Monday’s doctor appointment to check my hormone levels and my thyroid function since I have a past history of thyroid issues, and finally got the results in today.

…drumroll please…

Everything is perfectly, wonderfully, normal! I had blood drawn on cycle day 8, smack in the middle of the follicular phase (prior to ovulation). Here are my results for those of you that like numbers (like me!):

1. FSH was 9.2, normal range is 1.98-11.6

2. LH was 10.3, normal range is 2.58-12.1

3. Estradiol was 44, normal range is 21-251

4. Prolactin was 9.9, normal range is 3.9-31.6

5. Free T4 (thyroid) was 1.51, normal range is 0.75-1.59

6. TSH (thyroid) was 1.31, normal range is 0.4-4.0

YAY! As I said before, my ultrasound also came back perfectly normal with no signs of PCOS, so having a good ultrasound and good bloodwork is really exciting news. To confirm PCOS, the LH-to-FSH ratio should be 2-to-1 or higher, and my ratio was really close to a perfect 1-to-1 ratio. I’m really happy that everything came back normal and it seems like my PCOS is under control due to my weight loss, which is really motivating me to keep up the good work.

So, what next? Once we have the money together, I’ll be making an appointment with Dr. Chamoun over at Viera Fertility Clinic and doing whatever tests he needs done, buying sperm and then baby-making! Eeek! It’s so close…OMG! I can’t believe we are really, truly, finally getting this show on the road. Now we just need to find a money tree! 🙂

***Update 9/29/14 – received more lab results***

7. Free Testosterone was 4, normal range is 0.1-6.4

8. Total Testosterone was 49, normal range is 2-45

She did remark that my total testosterone was elevated above the “normal high” by 4 points, however she said there really wasn’t anything to worry about nor anything that could be done to lower it based on my other lab results being so good.

Ultrasound Results Are In

And everything in lady land looks perfect! Cori left me a message this morning that said there was no evidence of PCOS on ultrasound and it seems that my weight loss has caused me to become ovulatory again, which of course is great news for baby-making.

I’m so relieved. Now to get the lab results in and see how everything looks there! 🙂

Forward Motion

Ahh it feels great to feel like we are making progress toward Baby #2! Today was my appointment to get established at the new OBGYN’s office and I love everything about them! Their office is beautiful and everyone was super friendly.

I loved the nurse practitioner that I saw today, Cori. I was nervous and she put me at ease the moment she walked in. We reviewed my history, medications, concerns, and of course baby-making questions. One thing that was really awesome was that she updated my file to include that I had a son with my wife and detailed out that J carried him and I was going to carry the next one. It’s just a little detail like that where they genuinely care about the whole picture and really getting to know their patients instead of just getting them in and out as quickly as possible. My appointment was 45 minutes long and she spent all but 5 of those minutes with me, so I was also really happy with how thorough and invested she was.

We talked about baby-making and the plan for that. I told J I almost crapped myself when she said, “Well are you ready to start this month?” I swear my mouth dropped to the floor and I stammered “Yes. Um no. I mean – yes but no. Uhh…” LOL She seemed pretty confident that Clomid and IUI would be my probable course of treatment once the time comes and we are really ready to start trying (which J informed me today that she is ready as soon as we get the all-clear and I’m ready, so this could be happening sooner rather than later!!)

The exam and pap itself were typical. She was very gentle and said everything felt normal when doing the pelvic exam. She also mentioned the fact that I have cystic breasts, which I’ve been told before, and I asked her what exactly that meant and she didn’t make me feel like it was a stupid question and explained that it was totally normal and could be from caffeine ingestion, that the fatty tissue just doesn’t lay flat and is bumpy instead of smooth. She assured me it was nothing to worry about, so I’m not. 🙂

She asked if there was anything else I wanted to discuss before our visit was over and I talked to her about the PCOS diagnosis 10 years ago and that I had only had the one abdominal ultrasound which didn’t show anything. I said I was curious how things were now that I had a spontaneous period without medication, and if losing weight has “fixed” me, and so she offered to do updated labs and an abdominal and vaginal ultrasound. They had an appointment available this afternoon so I took it so I could get everything out of the way in one day.

Another great thing about this practice is how many things they have in-house to make it easier on patients. Blood draws, ultrasound, massage, psychological services and counseling specifically for women, and midwives! I’m really excited to have the option for a midwife once I’m pregnant.

So this afternoon I went back and had my blood drawn, which went really great. I have difficult veins so I was very happy that I came away with barely a mark from the needle! Next were the ultrasounds and apart from having to pee like a mofo all went smoothly. It was so different being on the other end this time, you’d think after being there for all 100 (exaggeration) of J’s ultrasounds I would be prepared but I was still a jumble of nerves and squinted to try to make sense of the images on the screen. Obviously they don’t tell you anything while you are there, but I should  get the results in the next few days. I will be anxious and worrying about all the “what ifs” until then, I’m sure, because that’s how I roll. J assures me that everything will be fine and I really am positive it will all work out exactly how its meant to. 🙂

Either way, I’m impatiently waiting for my test results and finding out our next steps. I’m excited, and full of butterflies!

Normalcy

TMI warning… 🙂

Ten years ago, I had just turned 18, and went to the gynecologist. I’d only had three periods since my first one at age 13, and no doctors would see me for this until I turned 18 or became sexually active. So once I turned 18, I made my appointment. I went through the uncomfortable ordeal on my own with no idea what to expect and when asked about my prior periods, I was embarrassed to say it had been years prior. I had an abdominal ultrasound (no cysts and everything looked fine), some bloodwork drawn (I think my FSH was a little low), which led to being diagnosed with PCOS and bluntly told that I’d probably never be able to have kids, so here take some birth control pills. I was devastated and thus began the vicious cycle of my adult life in which I’ve never had a period without being on progesterone followed by birth control, which always gave me severe migraine attacks within a month or two of use. As soon as I’d stop the birth control, my period would disappear until I started progesterone again.

Needless to say, I’ve gone through being on and off medication over the past 10 years, and seen two different gynecologists. My second doctor, which was also J’s doctor during her pregnancy with Jaxson, kept checking my bloodwork routinely to monitor and we tried so many different types and brands of birth control with no success in preventing the migraines. Also apart from the initial abdominal ultrasound back in 2004, I’d never had another to check out what was happening in there, nor really underwent any testing other than routine bloodwork since I wasn’t actively trying to get pregnant. Also, due to the PCOS I’ve struggled with my weight since I was a teenager. A couple years ago I’d lost weight and gotten down to 200-215 pounds which brought my period on – for two months straight. Needless to say I’d had enough after two months and went to the doctor to ask her to please make it stop. Enter birth control pills again and after a month or so, the severe migraine attacks began, and finally I said “forget it!” and ditched the birth control completely, around the time when J got pregnant with Jaxson. I figured I’d worry about it all later, when it was closer to my time to try to get pregnant, because I just didn’t want to suffer through birth control pills and all their fun side effects again, especially while trying to deal with a pregnant wife. 🙂

Finally last September after Jaxson was born and we’d had time to acclimate with life with a baby, J and I decided we’d start focusing on ourselves and getting healthy again and losing weight. In the year since, we’ve both lost about 50 pounds, and I actually had some spotting on my own in June 2014 which only lasted about a day. It was promising though and I was excited that maybe the weight loss was going to work and I was going to start functioning normally. July and August came and went without a period, until last night when I had some spotting. I woke up this morning discouraged that I hadn’t gotten a heavier flow and thought I’d just have a one day deal like I did back in June. Then at lunchtime I went to the bathroom and BAM there’s my period. I just had to lose weight and get healthy, and now I’m looking forward to my gynecologist appointment next week with my new doctor. I’m armed with some information to share with her, and I’m hoping that having a fresh pair of eyes look at my information will lead us to some answers. I’m super excited and optimistic that as I continue losing weight I will only become more regular and therefore more ready to get pregnant. Because for the first time in 10 years, I feel hopeful that I will be able to get pregnant because my body is finally doing what it’s supposed to have been doing this whole time. It’s empowering and satisfying, and I am so very happy, despite the cramps lol. It sounds silly, but after being told for years that you have no choice but to be on medication to be “normal” and that children may not be a possibility…well I’ve at least proven that I can function without being pumped full of hormones and that feels pretty damn good. 🙂

Baby?

The other night J and I were sitting on the couch watching TV. He was sitting in J’s lap, and he decided to get up and walk over to me. He said “Mommy!” and laid his head on my lap, then “knocked” on my belly (yes like a door) and said “Baby?” I laughed and told him there wasn’t a baby in there yet, just cheeseburgers! LOL Kids are so funny. 🙂