22 Months

Jaxson turned 22 months today! He’s been a very busy boy, playing and growing and driving Mommies crazy. But at the end of the day, all the snuggles and kisses make it all better. 🙂

New Vocabulary:

  • Hello! (finally! but only while pretending to talk on the phone)
  • Daniel (as in Daniel Tiger)
  • Babe (as in, “hey babe!” which he hears J & I say to each other)
  • Laundry
  • Box
  • People
  • (Aunt) Chelsea
  • “New-new Car”
  • “Mommy and Me book”
  • Yum!
  • Leaf, Tree
  • Garbage (he is such a great helper and helps me take it out!)
  • Garage
  • Seatbelt
  • Bubble bath
  • Helicopter
  • He’s starting to string words together in a sentence, and is getting the hang of manners such as “more, please”

New Skills:

  • He’s able to sort his toys by type. We have a bin that is only for his cars and no matter how messy the other toy bins get, it’s guaranteed the car bin will ONLY have cars in it.
  • He most definitely has memories now. The other morning J woke him up and he started saying “car Mommy and me” which were the two books we’d read together the night before.
  • “Drawing” – we have one of those magnetic boards with the pen and he loves drawing pictures for us.

New Likes:

  • Matchbox cars (really, ANY cars/trucks/planes/motorcycles/trains/etc.)
  • Daniel Tiger’s Neighborhood (the one show he will literally stop everything to sit and watch!)
  • Drinkable yogurt, which is good because at least he’s getting something in his belly.
  • We put up our Hanukkah decorations and the Christmas tree after Thanksgiving while Jax was napping. When he woke up he gasps in amazement, pointing to the lights, and going “Ooooooh!”
  • Christmas lights, we drove around the other night looking and he kept saying “Pretty! More please!” SO CUTE!

New Dislikes:

  • Mommies not letting him get away with whatever he wants (complete with full-on throwing-himself-on-the-floor tantrums)
  • Sitting in the shopping cart, he tries getting out constantly and sometimes we just have to let him sit in the big part if we’re not at the grocery store.
  • Eating…anything. He’s been so difficult with food lately, he’s even turning up his nose at old favorites.

And Everything Else:

  • If you ask Jax a question that he has to “think” about – he’ll scratch his head and go “hmmmm”.
  • We told Jax that we are going to have another baby eventually, and for fun we asked him if he thought it would be a boy or a girl. He replied that it will be a “people baby”!
  • The answer to every question is always “no” and every color is still “yellow”.
  • Aunt Betti came to visit one weekend with cousin Jolie & Marque and we had a great night at the county fair! Jax got to ride a lot of fun rides this time and we all got to go on the Carousel together.
  • We had a great Thanksgiving, with breakfast at my parents’ house and then dinner at J’s parents’ house. Aunt Beck & Uncle Charlie along with cousin Riley & Caden came to visit. Jax had a fun time playing with them, despite his bad attitude from not napping.
  • We got a new car because J’s car died for the last time…Jax loves his new car and so do Mommies because now everyone has a lot more room!
  • Discipline has been tough – he’s old enough to understand when he’s doing something wrong, but after the 500th time of saying “No, don’t ____”, we just want to give up. We don’t like saying no, but he’s definitely entering Terrible Two land where he’s starting to fight us on every. single. thing. just for the sake of fighting it and seeing if we’ll be consistent.
  • He gives the best snuggles and kisses right before bedtime, where he grabs you tight around the neck and gives you a squeeze and/or a pat on the back, and a big kiss! He’s such a loving boy!

Pictures!

YUM Bananas!

YUM Bananas!

He's got his bag, he's ready to go!

He’s got his bag, he’s ready to go!

Yo-Ho-Ho!

Yo-Ho-Ho!

Fun at the Halloween Sale!

Fun at the Halloween Sale!

Wearing Mama J's shoes

Wearing Mama J’s shoes

Who's in Mommies' bed?

Who’s in Mommies’ bed?

So cute!

So cute!

Carousel at the Mall

Carousel at the Mall

Packed & Ready to Go!

Packed & Ready to Go!

Enjoying the Great Outdoors

Enjoying the Great Outdoors

Handsome!

Handsome!

Playing with the baby monitor

Playing with the baby monitor

Thanksgiving 2014

Thanksgiving 2014

J looked away for a minute and he escaped out of the porch!

J looked away for a minute and he escaped out of the porch!

Bye Mom!

Bye Mom!

Bringing his car back inside

Bringing his car back inside

Our Christmas Tree!

Our Christmas Tree!

 

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Good Luck

Yesterday J, Jaxson, and I went to Ripley’s in Orlando to re-visit the fertility statues that are there. Last time we visited was the month before J’s second IUI, the IUI that gave us Jaxson.

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It was a very spiritual experience, and as I was touching the statues I was overcome with emotion. I had chill bumps and started crying, but I was feeling so peaceful and content. Despite the traffic woes, the rainy nasty day, and all the delays and stress getting out of the house that morning, it was worth all of it to have those ten minutes and the resulting peace.

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Many people we have told about the statues have said it’s ridiculous or superstitious, that there’s no way they could possible have anything to do with conception success. There have been tons of pregnancies after women have visited these statues, and we are one of those success stories. Everyone is entitled to their own opinions, of course, but for J and I, we believe that they do give good luck. We aren’t praying to them as you would to God nor are they replacing God for us. We see them as good luck charms for our baby-making journey, just like some people wish on a falling star or keep a rabbit’s foot or have a lucky shirt.

I shared the photos of us visiting the statues on Facebook last night and got tons of positive responses and “likes”. Everyone is excited for our continued journey, but unfortunately I got one negative comment from a very religious (Christian) family member of mine. I deleted their comment because I don’t want that kind of negativity and disregard for my very positive and spiritual experience. Please don’t discount my faith or beliefs because they aren’t the same as yours, that’s why they are MY beliefs. They are important to me. Respect them as I respect yours. They could have just rolled their eyes where I didn’t have to see and not comment at all. Their choice to comment was a dick move and only showed that they have no respect for me. I have no room for that sort of behavior in my life, especially now.

Anywho, I digress. We had a lovely experience and we feel good about the future. I am glad that we got to re-visit them with our son and top off our “good luck tank” for our next baby-making journey. 🙂 I leave you with this picture, guaranteed to make you smile. I love his little face! I am so grateful for the good luck that brought him to us!

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Loss of Limb

I picked up a prescription last night for Prometrium to force me to have a period since I haven’t had another period since September. It was dark in the car and I was reading the side effects out loud to J: blurry vision, dizziness, nausea, loss of limb…

J and I burst out laughing. “What?!” we exclaimed, and I finally turned on a light to look again. Turns out I had combined two different lines and the sentence was actually “symptoms of heart attack such as numbness, tingling or loss of feeling in limb”.

We had a good belly laugh over that one, but I’m glad I won’t be waking up one morning minus an arm or a leg!

Beginning Again

Note: I was somewhat nervous to post this publicly for now because a part of me can’t believe we are finally starting down this road and I didn’t want to “jinx” it. However, I didn’t leave anything out when J was going through this process and I don’t want to leave anything out during my experience. Warning: loads of optimism and excitement ahead! 

All week I’ve been full of nervousness and anxiety, excitement and anticipation. On Monday I finally got through to the RE’s office and scheduled my initial consult/new patient setup for today, Thursday. The days have been dragging by at a glacial pace this week, but finally, we’ve arrived. I had to pinch myself – THIS IS IT.

I felt so guilty when I had been absent for J’s initial consult last time around because I had to work, so I was really grateful that she could come with me today. That, and knowing how I already am with doctor’s visits (I forget what I want to ask and what they say because I get so nervous), I liked having her there to make sure I didn’t miss anything. Plus, I had a migraine this morning and my medication for that makes me kind of….stupid. LOL Despite all of that, I really wanted not only her ears and memory but also her support – after all, we are doing this together and she wanted to be there. Of course, we’ve been through this process before when she was the baby-maker, but now she gets to go through it again as the non-baby-maker. Everything that she can be a part of, I want her to experience so she can relax and enjoy it this time around. It’s a much different view from the non-baby-maker side of the stirrups!

I left work early and met J at Starbucks before we headed up to the doctor’s office. We arrived right on time at 2 and filled out a few extra forms they hadn’t had online and within 10 minutes we were back with the nurse. She went over my medical history and took my blood pressure (104/80) and weight (218). She remembered us from when J was undergoing treatment so of course we had to brag about Jax and share pictures. She was so excited we were back for round 2.

She led us to the conference room and in a minute Dr. C came in. We sat and discussed my medical history extensively, he reviewed my labs and ultrasounds from September and said everything there looked okay. He was pleased we’d been dieting and exercising and losing weight and didn’t even mention that I needed to lose more before getting pregnant. He seemed genuinely excited for us and was much more relaxed and at ease than I remember him being previously, so that was great too. After reviewing all of my information, he asked if both of us had been there for the psych evaluation last time (yes) and if we’d picked a donor (yes). He closed my file and gave us this plan:

  • He gave us the option of doing an HSG or not, since I didn’t really have any risk factors nor did I ever have abdominal or reproductive surgery in the past. I opted not to do it at this time, and would do it later if we were having trouble getting pregnant.
  • He let us know to go ahead and order the sperm and have it shipped to their office.
  • He sent me for labs tonight to check for infectious diseases & STD’s and to check my A1C, AMH, and cystic fibrosis status, which needed a whopping 13 vials of blood!
  • I had a quick pelvic exam and STD cultures taken – fun. Not.
  • He gave me a prescription for 200 mg of Prometrium to take for the next 5 days to induce a period within the next two weeks. (See this post for a good laugh!)
  • Once I get my period, I have to come in for an ultrasound and lab work to check my baseline information and make sure I don’t have any cysts present.
  • Depending on how the ultrasound and those labs look, I’ll start Clomid or Letrozole (I think I’m going to go with Clomid) and possibly injectable hormones to make my eggs develop well, ending with an HCG trigger shot to force ovulation.
  • And then we’ll go in for the IUI. Yes, you read that right…

WE’RE INSEMINATING IN DECEMBER!!

I never thought we would walk in there and come out with a plan to start trying next month. I figured I’d be doing a forced cycle with tons of blood work like J had to do, and then we’d come up with a plan. Plus we’d heard they didn’t do inseminations in December, so we were prepared to start in January or later, and we were shocked when he told us we could start right away. In fact, we had to ask him to repeat that because we weren’t sure we had heard him right. J told me my face turned bright red, which indicates embarrassment or in this case, being overwhelmed or surprised. I know I’ve said it before, that we kept feeling like The Powers That Be were telling us to wait to start this process until December for some reason – not necessarily “we’re going to get pregnant in December” but stop trying to rush to do it before then – and we put our faith in that feeling that December was important and to be patient for it. Sure enough, here we are, looking at a possible December insemination! Our faith and trust in the Universe seems to have paid off.

I am: Excited! Nervous! Scared! Anxious! J and I stayed up until 1 AM talking about everything and digesting all the information, and I’m fully at ease. J said she was having a little trouble getting excited, because she was worried about all the what-if’s (plus we’ve been watching Grey’s Anatomy lately and all sorts of terrifying baby/birth stuff goes down on that show all. the. time.). I’m not stressing because I’ve seen our future child in visions before, so has J, and I told her to keep the faith, and trust in the same Powers That Be that have led us to December. Obviously they’ve got an eye out on us! We both know that our next child is out there waiting for the right time to come to us, and having that faith makes all of this a little less scary.

I’m ready, and so incredibly thankful that this is finally happening. I’ve always wanted to carry a baby, and am so glad that the time has come for that to happen.

We want to go visit the fertility statues in Orlando again soon for some good luck conceiving. It’s kind of cool to be able to go back with Jaxson and say “Thanks for helping us get this wonderful, amazing child, now let’s do it again!!” 🙂