23 Months

WOW! Where has the year gone? This is the last update of 2014, and the last time Jax will have a “XX Months” update….next time, Jax will be 2 YEARS OLD! I’m glad to be doing away with the monthly count of his age, although we’ve mostly discarded it in real-life (instead saying “he’ll be 2 at the end of January”). Regardless, Jax is such an amazing and wonderful little boy and we are so blessed to call him ours. We never knew we could love a boy so much!

New Vocabulary:

  • Hi
  • Rainbow
  • (Aunt) Tabi & (Uncle) Darin and the names of their 3 boys!
  • Come here
  • Home (he recognizes our street now and says Home! Home! until we pull into the garage)
  • Room
  • Bug
  • Green
  • Help and Help Me
  • Moley! (guacamole)
  • Hanukkah & Menorah (a little garbled, but he knows what he’s trying to say!)
  • Yes! (finally – it was kind of annoying having everything be “no” lol)
  • All done/All gone
  • Love you Mama/Mommy! (which we are oh-so-excited to finally hear) and also says it to Nana, Aunt Panda, Papa, and the Guh-Guhs 🙂
  • Laundry
  • Sentences! And manners! He says “play, please” and also “thank you Mama/Mommy”

New Skills:

  • Getting undressed (shirt and pants)
  • Talking on the phone
  • He’s starting to learn to count, although when he says four it sounds like wh*re instead which always makes us laugh
  • He’s a huge climber and can also jump with both feet leaving the ground now.
  • He likes puzzles – figuring out how something works or playing a game, he’s pretty smart
  • Singing! We’re working on the ABC song and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.
  • Carrying a tune (he can do-do-do to “Eye of the Tiger” like nobody’s business)
  • Ask Jax what a drum says, he goes “do do do”, ask about a cymbal, he says “tsch tsch tsch”, both complete with hand motions.
  • Opening the garage and front doors, which meant the introduction of those obnoxious plastic pieces on the doorknob which are also adult-proof.
  • Opening the car doors
  • Getting better using forks and spoons, and he’s even started using a plate.
  • Helping with tasks such as: put this in the laundry basket, take this to your room, throw this in the garbage,

New Likes:

  • Bananas
  • Guacamole – he definitely takes after me with the love of Chili’s chips and salsa/guacamole!
  • Snuggling with Mommies in our bed in the morning and watching Mickey Mouse together. We used to do this more often then fell out of habit of doing it, but now when one of us goes to get him in the morning he runs to the gate by our side of the house and says “Mama, bed? Mickey Mouse!” Cutest. Thing. Ever.
  • His super-cool new light-up Star Wars shoes, complete with light saber sound effects
  • Christmas lights

New Dislikes:

  • Getting cleaned up before getting up from the table. We had switched him out of the booster seat and just had him sitting on cushions on our dining table chairs, but he kept getting up mid-meal and running into the living room to smear his gooey face on the leather couch, or would throw a fit when we tried wiping him up. So he lost that privilege and is back in the booster seat with his “seatbelt” again.
  • He also has a renewed hatred of getting his diaper changed and pitches a fit when you put him up on the changing table. I really can’t wait til he is potty-trained!

And Everything Else:

  • He’s really starting to exhibit independence. This is where Mommies have to give up a little control and just let him go at it. He’s been having a great time figuring out things on his own and having fun. We let him run around in the backyard now by himself (we sit on the porch and watch) and he has a blast. The other day he brought J a flower he picked for her – so cute! He’s also wanting to do things for himself like washing in the bath and putting on his shoes. He likes helping pick out his outfit for the day and brushes his hair and teeth. It’s so fun to see him become his own little (wonderful) person!
  • My cousin Tabi and her family moved to our city this month! Tabi and I were very close throughout our childhood and although we lived a few hours apart, we have always had a bond like sisters. I am so excited to have the opportunity to reconnect with her and watch our children grow up together!
  • Jaxson got to experience his first Christmas parade, which he loved. He especially enjoyed seeing all the high school bands playing the drums! We also drove through our local park that sets up a huge light display and he really had a good time. We also found a home that has a whole light show set to music and Jax LOVED it. He kept conducting in the back seat of the car!
  • We went to a Hanukkah parade! It is usually all about Christmas where we live, since we don’t really have a huge Jewish community like J grew up with in South Florida, so it was really nice to be able to go out and celebrate of Hanukkah with our little family. They had Hebrew music which he loved and dance and sang along with, faux snow, and a parade with menorahs on top of the cars.
  • Speaking of Hanukkah, we also went down to South Florida to celebrate with J’s family! This was the first year going for Jax and I, and we were really happy we were able to go so Jax could meet family he hadn’t yet met. He got to play with his cousins and it was just a really nice time and he got some really great gifts, too.
  • Christmas was a huge hit as well. Jax got a lot of great toys and super cute clothes to grow into. It was really fun this year because he understood opening gifts and could do it himself. He won’t throw the paper on the floor though and hands you every little scrap.
  • Jax has also started naming his toy animals. He has a tiny monkey he named Baby MoMo and a tiny lion he named Kanye. Yes, you read that right. We have no idea why he chose it but it’s pretty funny hearing him call for Kanye now!

Pictures!

Just chillin' and reading his book outside

Just chillin’ and reading his book outside

A boy and his Bubba

A boy and his Bubba

Watching TV together

Watching TV together

What a cheeseball

What a cheeseball

Snuggled up on the couch with MoMo

Snuggled up on the couch with MoMo

This face!

This face!

I asked him to show me a smile lol

I asked him to show me a smile lol

Enjoying a new favorite - bananas!

Enjoying a new favorite – bananas!

Hanging with Guh-Guh

Hanging with Guh-Guh

He loves trains and cars

He loves trains and cars

Out to Dinner

Out to Dinner

Having fun at the Hanukkah Parade!

Having fun at the Hanukkah Parade!

My two loves :)

My two loves 🙂

Not so sure about the faux snow

Not so sure about the faux snow

Testing out the snow pile at the Hanukkah parade

Testing out the snow pile at the Hanukkah parade

All of us!

All of us!

Hanukkah, oh Hanukkah :)

Hanukkah, oh Hanukkah 🙂

Jax's 1st night of Hanukkah

Jax’s 1st night of Hanukkah

All dressed up for the Hanukkah Party

All dressed up for the Hanukkah Party

Checking out the Christmas tree

Checking out the Christmas tree

Checking out his Moon/Star lamp for Christmas

Checking out his Moon/Star lamp for Christmas

Playing with his Mickey Mouse tools from Aunt Betti

Playing with his Mickey Mouse tools from Aunt Betti

Jax the Builder

Jax the Builder

Such a cutie!

Such a cutie!

Love that smile!

Love that smile!

Bathtime!

Bathtime!

New Haircut! (Too bad it won't stay spiked!)

New Haircut! (Too bad it won’t stay spiked!)

Sweetheart <3

Sweetheart ❤

P.S. I hope everyone has a wonderful New Years and a happy, healthy, and prosperous 2015. I know we are expecting good things next year! 🙂

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Back In The Stirrups Again

I had my cycle day 3 appointment and ultrasound today. Everything looks great: no cysts and a couple of follicles are already taking the lead on the right ovary. The doctor was actually sad it didn’t work last time. My progesterone blood work from last cycle came back perfect for only having one follicle ovulate (it was 8), so nothing to change there. He did raise my Clomid dose to 100 mg for days 3-7 to see if we can get a better response from my ovaries this time with more mature follicles and therefore more chances for a successful insemination.

J and I both feel that we are more prepared this time, and are optimistic for this cycle. After all, it took her two tries at IUI before we got Jaxson! I go back on January 7th for my follicle scan. Fingers crossed that I take to the Clomid really well this time and we get a good response and at least two follicles. Who knows – maybe twins are in our future! But I’d be happy with just one, too. 🙂

The Big No

I was supposed to have my blood beta pregnancy test today, but my period showed up with a vengeance yesterday morning. Instead I have an appointment with the fertility doctor tomorrow morning to get set up to try again in January.

Both J and I were very surprised that I wasn’t pregnant. I had crazy “symptoms” that I’d never had before a period before: nausea, exhaustion, the inability to finish a meal, hot flashes, weird tastes in my mouth, and the weirdest freaking cramps and twinges ever. At least now I know not to read into how I’m feeling as much next time, because obviously I’m super-sensitive to the Ovidrel shot and it mimics pregnancy way too well for me.

Another thing I learned for next time is not to test before my period is due. I did end up testing on Christmas evening and got a faint positive. We dared to hope even though it was still early. Tested again the day after and got another faint positive, although it was a little lighter. Hope blossomed. Then on Saturday I tested and got a negative. My heart broke. J refused to believe it and thought we still might have a chance but I felt in my gut that it was over, as much as I wanted to believe we could still get good news. I’m guessing I take a longer time than J did to get rid of the Ovidrel out of my system and that was the reason for the faint positives that got lighter before disappearing completely. Lesson learned: no early testing. All it did was make me anxious, freaked out, and a little crazy.

I feel silly for being so upset about it not working on the first try. I realize how many people have had such long, hard journeys to parenthood, and there are those still traveling the road. I am just sad that we weren’t in that small lucky percentage of people that only had to do IUI once. I’m upset at how expensive this whole thing has to be, and that we can’t just oops! at home and make a baby ourselves. I’m sure these feelings are not unfamiliar to many of you reading this. At least we are not alone. And we’ve seen the support our friends and family have given us via Facebook, which warms our hearts and reminds us just how loved we are and how many people are rooting for us and putting out positive energy in our direction. I’m so glad you’re all along for the ride.

I know it will happen at the right time, but I’m really hoping January is our month! 😉

7 More Days

7 days down, 7 more to go…seriously this has been the longest week of my life. Each day has been dragging by, inching closer to Test Day. I’ve held out so far on trying a pregnancy test at home, although we did buy a two-pack last week. I know I may still have some leftover HCG in my system from the trigger shot, although I admit I have been using spare OPKs I have left over to test it out. I know its not as accurate, but so far, the line has been getting lighter and lighter and I think today it will finally be gone. J’s trigger shot was not detectable anymore at 8 dpIUI, which would be tomorrow for me, so theoretically the earliest day I could test would be Thursday, which is Christmas.

I will not be testing Thursday morning. While it would be the best Christmas present ever, I don’t want that pressure (or disappointment) to ruin my day. Besides it will most likely be too early to tell even if I were pregnant. So I’m saving myself the heartache and I might will probably test this weekend sometime.

In other news I got up at 6 a.m. to drive 30 minutes to Viera for my 7 a.m. appointment to have my progesterone checked, and the lady hurt me when drawing my blood. 😦 Usually I don’t have a problem at all with the needles hurting me but this time I actually said “Ow!” out loud. Geez. When I finally got back down to my work, I almost peed my pants because I drank 2 bottles of water before my blood draw so I’d have good veins.

It’s been a long morning. 🙂

Here’s to a speedy next 7 days, and hopefully some good news waiting for us at the end!

The Two Week Wait Begins

I had my first IUI yesterday morning, and aside from some mild cramping and the migraine I had all afternoon/evening, everything went perfectly. I have no doubt our timing was on target, and had a temp rise this morning confirming ovulation occurred yesterday. As if my super sore boobs and flushed face, along with the migraine and resulting nausea, weren’t indicators enough.

The IUI itself was painless, which I was happy about. J had advised me to ask for them to use the soft catheter instead of the “cattle prod” as she calls it, and I’m glad I did since it was over without me realizing it’d even begun. Our sperm motility was great and the count was 37.4 million, which the doc was really pleased with! When J got pregnant the count was around 30 million, so a few million more sounds promising to me!

Afterwards, we went to get breakfast and did some light shopping. Around 1, I started getting a migraine and we came home and Jax and I napped for a few hours. I was so utterly exhausted that I laid down again around 7 and then we went to bed by 9:45. I was up throughout the night because of my headache and literally laid awake for 3 hours in the early morning because I couldn’t sleep through the pain. Of course, I can’t take anything but Tylenol during the TWW, which doesn’t even touch my headaches. At least this morning it seems to be a little better, although I do feel like I’ve been hit upside the head with a baseball bat! I’m sure this was just a result of the sudden hormone fluctuations due to ovulating (something I’m not used to!) and my body will soon adjust. At least, I sure hope so!

Regardless, I’m excited! We both are, and J keeps talking like I’m already pregnant. Only time will tell, but I’m cautiously hopeful. I know we did everything right and I have the utmost faith in my doctor that everything on his end was perfect, too. I am really at ease and peaceful, and am just trusting God that a pregnancy will happen at the time its supposed to. After all, that’s all I can do at this point, right?

I’m feeling good now, but I’m sure later on its going to feel like these two weeks are lasting an eternity! 🙂

This Just Got Real

I just gave myself my Ovidrel trigger shot. J is squeamish and could barely handle me giving her the same shot before, so she skipped this part and put Jax to bed instead. She’s been gone all day so they needed the snuggle time anyway. 🙂

The shot was uneventful to say the least. In, out, done. I’ve been kind of hum-ho about everything and feeling like it’s all a dream – too good to be true that we are starting this process so quickly – and part of me still can’t believe it. But boy oh boy, all it took was doing this injection to make this all feel real.

Oh my goodness we’re making a baby in 36 hours!!

Let’s Do This!

I went back to the doctor today for my follow-up ultrasound to see how my lone right follicle is doing. Thankfully it has grown and we are a GO! for insemination. I’ll have to do the Ovidrel trigger shot on Sunday night and then we’re having the IUI on Tuesday morning. Yay!

I was so nervous going in today that they would tell me it hadn’t grown enough and we’d be sitting this cycle out. But thank my lucky stars, everything is perfect. We’re so excited!!

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