Our Last Hurrah

We had our IUI this morning and everything went swimmingly (haha)! We were so happy to hear that our sperm count this time was the highest its ever been – 44 million! That’s over 10 million more than when J got pregnant with Jaxson! At least it feels like we’re going into our last try with our last vial giving it all we’ve got. We are really optimistic and hopeful but at the same time absolutely terrified. LOL

We had dropped Jax off with my dad before our appointment, and so we went out to breakfast after the IUI and enjoyed a nice, stress-free breakfast at Keke’s. We shared a banana caramel waffle and actually had the time to taste the food without having to reign in a toddler! It was nice to just get a moment to ourselves that wasn’t rushed.

After breakfast we checked out Once Upon A Child and found Jax a few new tank tops, oohed and aahed over the baby girl clothes, and headed home to pick Jax up. J started cramping and feeling really tired, so we laid low the rest of the day.

Even though we’re scared, we’re also really really excited. Jaxson keeps saying there’s a baby in Mama’s belly and he wants it to come out. We keep telling him its not ready yet and he gets all disappointed. I’m sure one day he’ll be asking us to put it back in (LOL), but for now, he’s pretty darn cute about wanting a baby. 🙂

She’s adamant about not testing early this time, and I’m okay with that. She goes for her progesterone test on 9/3 and then her blood pregnancy test on 9/10. Here we go!


One For The Money…

J had her follow-up appointment with Dr. Chamoun this morning and…we have one 22 mm follicle ready to go! She also had two more smaller ones, but the doctor said they probably wouldn’t catch up in time. She said she already feels pregnant (from the Letrozole). When she told that to Dr. Chamoun he goes, “I didn’t know I was that good!” LOL But we were glad to hear she had taken to the meds really well and very happy that we are good to go! She does the trigger shot tonight at 9 p.m. and then we go in for the IUI on Thursday morning at 9 a.m. YAY!!!!

Ready To Go Again!

We went to the fertility doctor yesterday morning. J had her baseline CD 3 ultrasound and much to our surprise, everything was perfect in there! We were fearing the worst but there were absolutely no cysts on her ovaries, which is what we were worried about, because it would make us wait until next month to start trying. 

So she left with a prescription for Femara/Letrozole 5 mg for CD 3-7 starting last night. She had some headaches and visual issues when taking the Clomid when we tried at home last month, so we felt switching was a good idea. 

We go back next Tuesday for the follow up ultrasound to see how many follicles grew. I’m hoping for at least two so we have some good chances with our last vial!

A Birthday, A Big Boy Bed, and Tantrums

I’m a little late posting this…August 12 was my birthday! I was kind of bummed because we didn’t have much money to do anything, but my lovely wife gave me an at-home pedicure the night before which turned out great! I started my birthday by taking Jax to Dr. Helft for his 2.5 year checkup and then met my mother-in-law for lunch and coffee. Yum! After Jax’s nap, we dropped him off at my parents’ house so J and I could have a nice dinner together at Outback. It ended up being a 45 minute wait there, so we headed over to one of our local favorites and found out they do free birthday dinners! So we got a budget-friendly and very tasty meal and had a nice time out together. We even got Starbucks afterwards thanks to a gift card from my mother-in-law! Overall it was a very nice and low key day; a great start to my 29th year. 🙂

As for Jax’s doctor visit, everything went really well. He’s 30 lbs and 38.5 inches, which is 53rd and 98th percentile respectively. He’s so tall! Everything checked out great and he’s developing right on schedule. He had no shots this time (yay!) and he doesn’t go back until he’s 3. They always ask such strange questions, like does he alternate feet to climb up stairs or ladders…we had to really think about it, but yes he does if he can reach. He also got to answer some of the questions on his own, like what does he like to do? His answer: I like to play drums and piano and guitar at Guh-Guh’s…oh and go swimming! Dr. Helft was pretty impressed with him! 

We love seeing Dr. Helft and we liked how when it was time to check Jax’s diaper area, he made sure to stress to Jax that only him and mommies are allowed to look there, no matter what. J and I have wondered when and how to start introducing that concept, and it’s sad that that even has to be taught to children, but alas it is a sad world out there. So we left our visit with a very healthy and happy boy who even got a lollipop for being so good (unlike the girl in the room down the hall who was literally screaming nonstop for her whole visit).

Everything else in Jax’s world has been mostly good. He’s blossoming in personality and vocabulary and every day he amazes us. He knows how to get to ours and the grandparents’ houses by telling us to turn left or right. He knows all of his colors and can now song Twinkle, Twinkle and the ABC’s (most of the time). He’s started counting and is good with 1-4 and 8-11 (but leaves out 5, 6, 7). He loves puzzles and cars and animals. He loves playing outside and even helped us wash the cars the other day. He helps me take out the garbage and feed the guineaa pigs.  He can mostly dress himself and has gone on the potty more, but not frequently enough to say were making much progress. He’s kind of gone backwards with it here he’s just too lazy to go sit on the potty, or he only wants to do it when he wants candy. He talks in full sentences now and even has some funny little sayings. “Oh c’mon!” when something is really funny or if he is struggling or drops something. “Wait a second” and “No wait, I mean…” when he’s talking too fast to pick the right thing to say. He makes jokes, he tickles us, he loves to snuggle. 

Oh, I forgot to mention he moved to the toddler bed and HE LOVES IT! He was fighting a nap one day and as we were watching him on the monitor, he started climbing out. J went in there and he was halfway out of the bed, so we knew it was time to move him to the big boy bed. We converted the crib and moved his room around right then and surprisingly (because we’ve heard horror stories) he just goes right to bed. He doesn’t get up multiple times and throw fits about going to bed. He just climbs up there like a big boy and lays down. There has only been one time that he got up when we put him down but that was it. We put him back to bed and he stayed no problem. He gets up in the morning now and comes to our room to get us up, although we usually wake up when we hear him open his door. He loves his new room setup and newfound freedom to play in his room now. He’s getting so big…

And so is his attitude. For all the wonderful things he is and does, his tantrums are awful. The other day he just screamed at us all day and cried and hit us and banged on the walls and carried on. J and I were both completely frazzled by the end of the day. Timeouts didn’t work, spanking didn’t work, yelling didn’t work. The only thing that worked (not really) was ignoring him. At the end of the night he threw such an awful tantrum after bathtime that I just ended up just hugging him so tight so he couldn’t move until he calmed down, which took a good ten minutes. I just kept telling him I loved him him even though he was acting in a way I didn’t like. He kept saying “Don’t say I love you!” So I just said it more. LOL A friend of ours was over that night and was like OMG – they’d never seen him act like that. It’s been an unbearable couple of days, and I think he’s just testing his boundaries and trying to be Mr. Independent and getting frustrated when we still help him or do things instead of letting him do them. He’s just gotta learn that sometimes mommies still have to help because he’s just not big enough yet.

He’s getting there, though. Our big little boy is growing up so fast, too fast. 🙂 

Jax & MoMo in his Big Boy Bed!


How Do You Have A Vitamin D Deficiency In Florida?

We went to the doctor for our follow-up appointment today. We were super nervous going in and of course, feared the worst. 

Luckily, we met with the doctor and while some of J’s labs weren’t good, most of them were great! Her thyroid, A1C, and hormones all came back great. However, her AMH was a little low (9.8 and they like it to be 10) and FSH was a little high but still in the normal range. Basically all that means is she has a few less eggs than someone else her age, due to age, but it’s not really a big deal. The other bad result was that J’s Vitamin D was super low. How this can happen in the Sunshine State I’m not sure, but she has to take a supplement once a week for 8 weeks and then they will recheck it. We asked what Vitamin D had to do with fertility and he explained that it helps support implantation. And while he “couldn’t say for certain” that that could have contributed to our chemical pregnancy last month, chances are good that’s what happened.

The best news from the visit: we get to go ahead and try this next cycle! We thought we would have to wait until she finished the Vitamin D supplements, but he said we could proceed as planned. Yay!

Post-Chemical Pregnancy RE Visit

Today we had our visit with Dr. Chamoun. We had to bring Jaxson since we couldn’t get a sitter so last minute, but he was a gem and of course charmed everyone there. We talked with the doctor for about thirty minutes, and he seemed concerned that I was so quiet and questioned why we were switching from me to J. We told him that it was because our next step using me would be major injectables IUI or IVF, neither of which we can afford right now. We knew that J’s plumbing worked, so we were hoping she would be an easy (and cheaper) alternative to continuing with me.

He sent her for labwork to check all her hormone levels and we went to get those done after the appointment. As long as everything comes back okay, we will proceed with the next cycle doing our IUI. We go to pick up our last vial of Todd from Cryos on Friday and have to drop it off with the doctor’s office next week. We are a little sad that we don’t get to get right back to it and try this cycle, but I think the wait will be a good time for us to work on our diet (going low-carb again…) and health overall to prep J for pregnancy.

Written July 23, 2015


I woke up late, ran into traffic on my way to the lab for my estradiol bloodwork, and then the lab had an issue with my lab requisition form requiring me to call the doctor’s office and have them fax a new one over while I was literally in the blood draw chair with a tourniquet on.

Luckily, I got in and out pretty quickly at the lab once all of that was dealt with and I went to my follow-up ultrasound afterward to see what Follistim did for me. I’ve been having cramps and aches all weekend while doing the shots, so I was so nervous nothing was happening in there (since every other time I’ve felt things happening, nothing’s actually happened). I prayed and prayed that even just ONE follicle would stick and grow and everything would be ready at my appointment today. I was literally shaking with nerves while I was waiting in the ultrasound room for the doctor and nurse to come in. I just didn’t want to have to be told “not yet” again. All I wanted for Mother’s Day was to be able to proceed with this cycle sooner rather than later.

After digging around for a few minutes trying to find my left ovary (holy crap OW), thankfully, the stars had aligned and my body had responded by giving me one beautiful follicle on the left ovary (the second one seen on the previous ultrasound went away), perfect triple-stripe lining, and the best news of all: IUI on Thursday morning! I wanted so badly for the Follistim to have worked and thank God it did. I have to do one final Follistim shot of 75 125 IU tonight (we figured “what the hell!” and ended up using up the last 50 IU left in the vial in addition the 75 IU he wanted me to do), Ovidrel trigger shot tomorrow (Tuesday) night at 9 p.m., and then the IUI on Thursday morning at 9 a.m.! I’ll also be doing 200 mg Prometrium supplements starting at 2DPO (protocol since I was on injectables), but I was happy about that since I was going to ask for it anyway. The plus side to taking the progesterone is that anything I “feel” after the IUI is most likely from the medication, so I think it will keep me calmer and (hopefully) avoid the dreaded symptom spotting during the TWW. And finally, I have my beta blood pregnancy test scheduled for 5/28.

WE ARE SO EXCITED! Finally, we are moving forward. J was so happy when I told her the news this morning after my appointment. We laughed about the timing since we conceived Jaxson on May 19. Oh boy. What if our kids end up with the same birthday?!

Now that we know the IUI is on the books, I feel like we can take a breath and relax for just a minute. I’m so glad that we have only told our close family about this cycle so that we don’t have the added stress of everyone else knowing and bugging us for details or outcomes (it’s hard enough when our parents keep asking us to explain everything over and over again!). We have enough stress as it is since this is kind of a Hail Mary IUI.

Since we added the Follistim we had to dip into our savings for the next cycle to pay for the Follistim, so we may not have enough to continue trying right now if this cycle is a bust (especially since we definitely don’t have enough saved for the added cost of Follistim!). I’m hoping and praying and begging the universe to please just let this be our cycle, please let me be Lucky #3. I feel selfish, because I know there are so many out there who’ve been trying for years to get pregnant, but unfortunately being a lesbian minus being a millionaire plus only having limited amounts of sperm available = PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET THIS BE OUR TIME! The thought of having to put baby-making on hold yet again because of financial constraints freaks me out. Its such a stupid thing to hold you back from your dreams.

But I digress. I’m not going to worry about that. None of it will matter. Because deep down, I’m having faith and believing that this will be it. And I appreciate all of you keeping the faith with me. 🙂

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