Test Day… And 3 Days After

September 10th was official test day and we headed out early to get J’s blood drawn for her beta. She tested yesterday, and it was negative, but since she hadn’t gotten her period, we went to get the beta anyway.

The nurse called at 1:30… Negative. Our hearts sunk. J mentioned the complete lack of period (she is like clockwork), and the nurse said if she hadn’t started by next week they could redo the beta or have her come in for an ultrasound to make sure everything was okay.

That wasn’t necessary, because after there days of wondering if it was too early for the beta to be accurate, our cycle ended.

This was our last vial of our donor. This was our last bit of money in savings. We gave this everything, and its gone like that. And we have nothing to show for it.

*sigh* I don’t know what we are going to do now…


Our Last Hurrah

We had our IUI this morning and everything went swimmingly (haha)! We were so happy to hear that our sperm count this time was the highest its ever been – 44 million! That’s over 10 million more than when J got pregnant with Jaxson! At least it feels like we’re going into our last try with our last vial giving it all we’ve got. We are really optimistic and hopeful but at the same time absolutely terrified. LOL

We had dropped Jax off with my dad before our appointment, and so we went out to breakfast after the IUI and enjoyed a nice, stress-free breakfast at Keke’s. We shared a banana caramel waffle and actually had the time to taste the food without having to reign in a toddler! It was nice to just get a moment to ourselves that wasn’t rushed.

After breakfast we checked out Once Upon A Child and found Jax a few new tank tops, oohed and aahed over the baby girl clothes, and headed home to pick Jax up. J started cramping and feeling really tired, so we laid low the rest of the day.

Even though we’re scared, we’re also really really excited. Jaxson keeps saying there’s a baby in Mama’s belly and he wants it to come out. We keep telling him its not ready yet and he gets all disappointed. I’m sure one day he’ll be asking us to put it back in (LOL), but for now, he’s pretty darn cute about wanting a baby. 🙂

She’s adamant about not testing early this time, and I’m okay with that. She goes for her progesterone test on 9/3 and then her blood pregnancy test on 9/10. Here we go!

One For The Money…

J had her follow-up appointment with Dr. Chamoun this morning and…we have one 22 mm follicle ready to go! She also had two more smaller ones, but the doctor said they probably wouldn’t catch up in time. She said she already feels pregnant (from the Letrozole). When she told that to Dr. Chamoun he goes, “I didn’t know I was that good!” LOL But we were glad to hear she had taken to the meds really well and very happy that we are good to go! She does the trigger shot tonight at 9 p.m. and then we go in for the IUI on Thursday morning at 9 a.m. YAY!!!!

We’re Really Going To Do This

Clomid? Check. OPK’s? Check. Ovidrel? Check. Supplies for home IUI? Check. Sperm? Scheduled for pickup on Monday afternoon.

J got her period last night so today is her official CD 1. She’ll be doing Clomid 50 mg CD 5-9 and starting OPK’s on CD 9 (ours don’t react to Clomid, we checked!) until CD 11. We’ll be triggering with the Ovidrel on CD 11 unless she gets a positive OPK prior to that, and then we’ll do the IUI 36 hours later at home.

We’re both very excited (and nervous and scared and anxious). We’re really going do this. All I keep thinking is, “What if it works?”

I’m trying not to get too overly hopeful or be crazy optimistic, but I have a good feeling. If we get pregnant this time, it will have been just us two making a baby, which is what we always wanted. Simple, normal, regular. I want it to work so badly. I really hope it does.

Written June 25, 2015.

This Just Got Real

I just gave myself my Ovidrel trigger shot. J is squeamish and could barely handle me giving her the same shot before, so she skipped this part and put Jax to bed instead. She’s been gone all day so they needed the snuggle time anyway. 🙂

The shot was uneventful to say the least. In, out, done. I’ve been kind of hum-ho about everything and feeling like it’s all a dream – too good to be true that we are starting this process so quickly – and part of me still can’t believe it. But boy oh boy, all it took was doing this injection to make this all feel real.

Oh my goodness we’re making a baby in 36 hours!!